match against sac today. won the match. it was good, at least we continued to fight hard till the end. coach announced that she wont be coaching us anymore. most of us cried, after having her being our coach for.. abt 6years ? the bus ride back to sch doesnt seem the same today. everyone was just.. quiet.

really learnt alot from the coach the past few years. ever since the day i started playing netball. i believe without her, i wouldnt be the player i am today (:

thank you.

release of o level results today. it kinda gives me the motivation to study harder. i feel so aimless though. i dont have a motivation in life, neither do i know what i wanna do after the freakin' exams. oh well, i guess i'll just have to go figure out what i wanna do and stuff. im so tired, BYEEE :D

sucha cute pic (:

HAPPY 13TH BIRTHDAY BRO :D
you've always been there when i needed someone to rant to and i could never ask for anything more.
i love you so much (:

this time im not gonna blog abt my day or whatsoever. i have so much to say inside and i believe this is the only place i can actually voice out whatever i want to. im so pissed with someone living under the same roof with me. not my bro, not my sis. you should be able to get the idea who it is alrdy. oh whatever.

im sick, im tired and i dont feel well. but i believe i dont have to depend on you. i can get well on my own. you want to leave me starving and just ignore me eh ? by all means, go ahead. i'll live off with whatever food i can get arnd the house.

im not the one who done wrong. im not the one who LIED so many times, over and over again. im not the one who makes those empty promises which actually sounded true at first. NOTE : AT FIRST. but now, im beginning to see that i cant trust you. yes, not ever again. and not ever in my entire life. i may sound like a childish brat, but im not the one whom you should be angry over. just bcos i voice out my opinions when they* didnt say anything, that doesnt mean you have to treat me this way. if you feel guilty and thats why you're treating me like this, then that isnt my fault. what i've said are facts and you know it yourself.

dont come tell me things in your solemn tone and hoping that i would believe you again. becos im telling you, i will NEVER be so stupid and a blur block to believe you ever again. you lied time after time and expect us to suit your lifestyle with *. have you ever thought abt us before making any decision ? you probably never did. your reason for ________ is that you want to have greater commitments. have you ever thought abt us AND showed your commitment as a ______ to us ?

all i have to say is that - you're so selfish. all you only think abt is you and *. what abt us ? YES, WHAT ABT US. dont tell me that i've never spared a thought for you. becos i alrdy did, im living with you and suiting your lifestyle with *. did i ever complain and make things difficult for you ? i tried not to. if i have any displeasure abt * or whatever, i'd just tell them to sarah or ian. i never did tell you becos i knew how angry you'd be when i tell you but this cant go on anymore. you're taking advantage of our presence. you want the best of both worlds. to *: if you never knew, you're sucha life ruiner. you ruined everything, everything we ever had. you dont know how selfish you can be by forcing my ______ to a _______. i rather not type out the blanks.

selfish and ignorant.

BYE.

i wanted so much to play my best, but i pushed myself too hard till i vommited.
i kept telling myself i have to put in the shot, but not every shot went in.
i kept telling myself i have to perfect my pass, but my frustration got the better of me.
i kept telling myself i cant let the team down, but i did.
i told myself i could have played better, but it was too late.

i regret.

how i wish i could tell you how im feeling right now.
i need you.

and it makes no sense
i could just pick up the pieces
but to you
this means nothing
nothing at all

im all sticky and smelly now. yes, im going to bathe after typing this entry. just came back from a match. pretty okay game today i guess. how unlucky i got my THING right before leaving for the game. caused all the discomfort, cramps and blah blah :( f-ing irritating. important match on monday against tkgs. heh (:

so engaged in netball these few weeks, hate all the long bus trips home and stuff. took cab back home today and saw qiuxuan in her flowery shorts near parkway area ! lol. okay nvm that :/ school's been very much all abt tests. argh, four tests next week. theres nothing much to blog abt.

i've been having weird dreams for two days in a row. its stupid, really. i dreamt ky got pushed down the HDB flat by this man called mr lee(?). whoever that is !?

i realised i havent been attended GII pracs and all. aye :| i forgot all abt lunch today and im hungry now :( alright, i gotta go take a bath.

spinning>> perfect world - simple plan

happy valentine's day all (:

had a match today. i played like.. crap and im kinda disappointed wit myself. ah whatever. i missed too many shots. at the back of my mind, was you.

thats all for tonight. i dont feel like blogging at all.

Do you care if i don't know what to say?
Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
Will i shake this off, pretend its all okay
That there's someone out there who feels just like me
There is

i love this song anyway.

i shouldnt have said anything, really.
i regret telling you what i said. did it matter to you ?

i just finished watching the amazing race. wth, kris and jon didnt win.

went visiting today and it was just plain.. boring. except going to my cousin's house in serangoon though. where they have like their jamming room wit a drumset, guitars, keyboards, amps and stuff. its really fun just hanging out wit them and listening to them jam (: other than that, i dont really like chinese new year. okay, the angbao part is good too :D

played wit my cousin's kid who is just 6years old just now. she FORCED my bro and i to play board games wit her. and when we were bankrupt or losing, we just cheated her money. so silly. LOL :D

okay im really tired now. GOODNIGHT FOOOOLLLSS (:

spinning>> next to you - ciara

whoa, quite an eventful day ytd (:

took a cab and headed down ta town wit olivia to get akimi and audre's presents. the taxi driver was just too funny. at first, he noticed GAYS in this other cab nearby and he kept telling us and following the cab just to let us see them clearly. LOL, and i think those people knew we were following them on purpose. hoho (:

finally got their presents after so long. we tricked akimi and audre that we werent going for the party. haha. oh, oli and i got ourselves a new cap ! haha. and i had to queue up F-ING long just to withdraw money out. argh :/

made our way down to ecp for the party. almost everyone were there already. lol, played around wit the stupid trolley (?). okay, so the 'interesting' part was when we were sending farhana off, we were walking thru this path to the underpass and akimi noticed this indian man near a tree with his pants unzipped, doing some weird stuffs to his you-know-what. she whispered to me and i turned to look. guess what, he was masturbating or sth !? i dont know if he was a flasher or what. its the most DISGUSTING thing i've ever seen, seriously. i just screamed and ran off and the rest followed. LOL :|

im still so grossed out. had fun at the party though. played kiddy games like dog and bone. since we had nothing to do. haha (: went back around 1plus. didnt have enough sleep, going to sleep for a while now.

spinning>> lovers and friends - lil jon feat. usher & ludacris

first of all, would like to say..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LTHENA DARLINGGG (:

surprised her wit a cake after sch at parkway and it was rather hilarious. when she was abt to blow the candles of the cake, kath coughed and blew all the candles out. LOL :D sucha fool. so many people's birthday around this time of the month. plus daph (: audre and akimi's party tmr too !

on our way to parkway to get the cake, was on the bus and there was these three sec ones being real !@#$%^. they were the ones who sorta 'BULLIED' audre the other time ? slap all of them if i could. sec ones only and they do such things just bcos audre isnt a very outspoken type. you all should just GO BACK TO PRIMARY SCH MAN. thats just where you belong. !@#$%^ >:|

moving on, had math test and training today too. im so dead tired now. probably gonna sleep or sth soon. lol, got third for that stupid hamper wrapping competition that me, kath, mel and the rest of us did. we practically just dumped everything into the basket ? :/ LOL !

spinning>> S.O.S. - good charlotte

today must be the most suay day ever.

i fell down twice today. while i was walking up to my class after pe lesson, i tripped over a step and hit my knee against the stairs and it bled. HOHO :/ i hate scars. and i fell down the second time outside sch while walking to the bus stop. shant emphasize on that cos i think its just too embarrassing. LOL :D

what a GOOD start to the month eh ?

horrible match ytd against tkss, all of us didnt play well despite winning it. including myself of cos. got trashings from coach and wahidah :/ we gotta play better than that.

my sis is really nice (: she bought me a new usb port device to transfer songs from my comp to my hp, cos she knew that the one i had didnt work.

[EDIT]
alright, changed the template to sth black, white and red. i like i like (: gotta go off ta sleep now. goodnight :D [/EDIT]

spinning>> let me love you - mario